Alice In Wonder Land

mood: thoughtful

music: SSX3- NERD - Rockstar

Hi there again!

Wow,  I've made many new friends here! So, thank you all that wanted to be my friends. You made me really happy.

You'll never guess! It's raining again!!

But anyways. Today's been such a good day! My dear friend Emmi came to my place and then we headed to the library. We lend many mythology books from there. And I got some new information about many interesting subjects! For example, did you know that the character Dracula is based on real person? This real cruel man who was a real psycho called himself Dracula (Draculi's son. Devils son or something like that it was...) lived on 1400- century. He slaughtered over a 100 000 people! And that wasn't even pretty to read. Even hes lovers didn't survive!

Emmi made me lend some Sandmans. (from Neil Gaiman). When I started to read them I just started to think all kinds of odd things. Like, there was this story that was told only once in a mans lifetime. And he couldn't speak of it, He couldn't ask about it. Ever. Not after the story was told. And then the man should tell the same story to his grandson after 80 years from hearing it himself. Now. How can you remember the story, if you never speak of it? If you never write about it? I wonder. 

And that leads me to another thing. I just can't watch or read something and enjoy it. I have to start thinking all the un logical things in it! Seriously. While watching a movie I start making sarcastic questions and tell how badly it was made or something. Nobody likes it while watching a movie! Not even me and I'm the one doing it!

And then. I don't know where it came from but I started to think about parents. And somebody on TV said that it's a horrible reason when you notice that you're a bad parent. 
But really, only few parents notices it before they're suffering it themselves. I mean. If the kid says he/she's doing okay, that means everything's okay.  That's what many of them(parents) thinks. But it's not like that! 
If you ever hit your child, it's not okay! If you ignore your child, it's not okay! If you get really drunks infront of you child, it's not okay! But why do you get it only when its causing you trouble? I'm not saying that all parents are like that, but unfortunately so many are. 

Sandman inspired me to paint something after a long break. It's just a small painting. About a5. 
"What's hiding in the dark" I named it. I'll maybe post it here... But not now. I have to scan it first. It's based on my fear of dark, so of course it's all black. excluding the little face on it..well. Maybe you'll see it sometime!

I'm also a little pissed off. It's so hard to explain so I don't do it. But It's because of one of my friends actions. But I'll get over it pretty soon! I hope.

But again, I'm going to spend a marvelous time with my beloved friend, Emmi. We're probably just going to play playstation, but that's marvelous to me.

So see you again :]

location: Home

mood: blah

music: Three Doors Down - Love Me When I'm Gone

It's raining. 
When somebody asks me do I like rain I answer immediately that I don't. But I don't know if that's true. 
Little rain is nice. It feels good on my skin. If the raindrops aren't big. But sometimes downpour is nice too. But not when I'm on my walk. Then it just gets me all crappy. When I'm all soaked and I should walk back home.  And if it's raining my mp3s headphones doesn't stay in my ears.  Bleh.  But when I'm sitting all alone at my house, rain is just depressing. But when I'm with my friends and It starts raining, It's kinda nice. Unless we're photographing...
So...I could say that I like rain but I don't like it. Confusing. 

Today was really boring day. I  didn't go out at all. Not even once. I didn't even peek to our balcony. But I got a new friend. That was nice. 

I'm waiting tomorrow all excited. Because then I'll see one of my best friends! I saw her over three weeks ago. The house the lived when they were in Russia, had glass walls at bathroom. No privacy at all. When I heard about it I laughed. I'm such a good friend x3. 

I just realized that I haven't watched TV at all today! Oh my god... Something is really wrong with me. 

I wrote to my penpal today. I'm sending it tomorrow. The letter is 8 pages...8 pages! Geez... No wonder why my back hurts. I've just been writing all day in bad position. 

But, again, there was nothing interesting to tell about today, so I'll just get going. G'night.

mood: numb

Well then. I finally made an account here. Now some random babbling about my day.

Because this was the day I decided to be all by my self, I slept long. Well... It's not that unusual really. 

I woke up at two o'clock. Then I watched TV all day long. Until I went eating and watched TV some more. At some point I went for a walk. But I was full of candy, so it made me feel sick. And I almost vomited. I came back home and then it was all ok. So, the day wasn't so special, without the little exception that my good friend, who's now in Russia, talked to me trough internet. We are E-mailing every night, but this was different and it made me really happy. 

All tough I was alone all the time, I didn't even think odd things. that was unusual. Normally I start thinking all kinda of stupid things, like how people are always thinking about the bad things in their lives and not the good ones. And then they all say that their lives sucks because there is nothing good in their lives. Then they cry about all the bad things what's in their lives. Why doesn't anybody pay attention on the small, good things? Well.. I guess it's human nature. I also have that flaw. Sometimes I really have to take a pen and a piece of paper and write all kinds of good things that pops in my mind. Then I know that my life doesn't suck. 
Bwahahaha. I did think something odd. Just now. But..it doesn't count because I already toughed that out earlier.

Okay. That's for now. And I'm way too tired to pay attention on spelling..so don't kill me ok?